i could've been wonderful

But I'm just fucked up. Maybe permanently. How many people does this happen to? Damaged as children, innumerable tragedies. I should have died before, when it would have hurt none but those who richly deserved any pain they might have felt. But I was weak. I've always been weak, not by nature, but weakened. Now I'm stuck here, to make the best of it I can. Gaining strength so slowly, geologically. So by the time I die, maybe, just maybe, I will have a moment in which I will see infinity; then my light will wink out, forever.