outside

the overwhelming sadness of the world. the weariness of the knowledge that it cannot be overcome. so much. we must not think about it. you try not to, don't you? i think it without immersing in it. i used to. it will swallow you whole. the pretense is what kills me. people who walk around as if everything is swell. i can't get away from it. i can't pretend it's not there. ignoring it doesn't mean it's not there. the masses are morons. they give the power to evil and greed. so the whole world is controlled by this pathological symbiosis. there are a fair number of people who don't look like morons. at least not to the level of bubba and jim-bob over in arkansas. but they also seem to be morons. it shows in their actions and beliefs. there's the predominance of belief in magical invisible men. then there's the belief in politics and politicians. no matter how many times they are burned and given overwhelming evidence of the reality of the situation, they continue to behave as if politics is the answer. that if they just vote for the right person, all will be well. THEY'RE ALL BAD! that's why they're in politics. no healthy person would ever go into it. it's all pretense. i will get outside of it all. one way or another. eventually, anyway. these are facts i must live with. that you don't want to see them just makes me more alone. i will try to stop thinking about it. i wish i could. i need other things to focus on. then these brutish realities will not keep intruding upon my potential blissful ignorance.